Relax, relax, relax. That is what I have been forcing myself to do for the past month. Things did not go as planned and the extremely controlling part of me has been going crazy.
The Boston Marathon is in less than 3 weeks. While I know I can run a pretty good marathon, I am pretty much just going to run that day. I am going to relax and just see what my body can do. Yes, I do have paces in my head that I would like to hit, but if I am being realistic, I have no idea if I am ready to hit those paces. We are not talking huge PR here. I would love to see a PR, even if it is only 2 seconds, but I won't be TOO disappointed if I don't. Relax, it is only one race right?
We enjoyed every moment of this race, even if it monsooned for 13 miles then turned to 90 degrees for 13.
I can't control everything but I can think happy thoughts to get me through each day.
Physical Therapy Grad school, oh the dream that stresses me out. For the past few months, on top of school and running, I have been observing at a PT clinic in Revere, Massachusetts. Westford Mommy goes to Revere? Yes, that is a good hour drive with no traffic! Unfortunately, I have been having a hard time finding local PT clinics to let me observe, so I was fortunate enough that Steph's sister-in-law is an amazing PT and has been letting me observe. I already have over 30 hours observing there, so I need to move on to another clinic. I am trying to find something closer, but so far, I haven't been having luck. I am hoping that my luck will change. I also did apply at a few clinics to work as an Aid, so maybe I can get paid to observe. But, again, I will relax. I have until November to gain more hours. I have a few more connections that I am currently following up with and know things will work out. I just need to breathe and accept that I will find a way.
My husband is amazing and I know this, I need to trust that he knows when we should worry.
Finally, my biggest stress of all right now.....My husband works as a contractor for a software company. He found out yesterday that they are not renewing his contract after April 20th. Yes, April 20th....4 days after the Boston Marathon and the first anniversary of my brother's death. What a good day that will be! My husband isn't freaking out, but I obviously am. I have absolutely no control over this. In less than four weeks, our life will be completely changed, AGAIN. As if this past year hasn't been crazy enough.
Change is OK because I will always have my three favorite people with me through it all.
So now today, I am REALLY TRYING to relax. I skipped my spin class this morning, I know Boston will not be affected by missing a workout when I am exhausted. I went to a yoga class this morning and breathed. I will sit here and do homework today and surrender my worry. Worrying will not take care of everything, it will only drive me crazy. Things will make sense again, it has to.