This morning I ran 15 miles on the treadmill, watching the adult movie, Bridesmaids, I might add. I liked it, it made the time go by fairly quickly. I got done with my run and had to get Bridget, my 6 year old, ready for school. At this point, I was STARVING. I ate an English muffin before my run, but 1500+ calories burnt and I was famished. I had a quick glass of chocolate milk, hopped in the shower, and made Bridget's lunch and ran her to school. Normally, I would have started my oatmeal before hopping in the shower but I knew I was short on time, and I also had this thought in my mind. If I got Bridget to school and Gabbie occupied when we got home, I could enjoy my oatmeal while watching Glee. Squeal!
So there I was enjoying my delicious oatmeal, getting constantly interrupted by Gabbie, and totally enjoying my morning. The "Warblers" made an appearance on the show and again, I squealed. Seriously, who am I? The Warblers, are a silly little singing group on a silly little TV show and yet it made me so incredibly excited. Those 45 minutes were quite enjoyable but made me realize I am a teenager in a woman's body.
Do I love these crazy shows, such as Beverly Hills 90210 and Felicity, because I want to be young again? I can tell you, the story lines have not changed in the 15 years since I have been out of high school. (Crawling under a pillow right now, 15 years, wow!)
I fear getting old. I remember when I was 21 and I thought to myself, I do not want to turn 25 because that is so old. What I would do to be 25 now, oh goodness. Now at 31, I dread birthdays. I don't want to get old because that means my body is aging and I am not ready to slow down. The only benefit of getting old in my eyes is age grouping up, therefore having a higher Boston Qualifying time.
An absolute sign of me getting old is my doctor's appointment I have for Friday. I am going to the doctor because there is something wrong with my hip. I swear, they are going to tell me I need a hip replacement, so I have put off this appointment for way too long. I basically know what is wrong with me. While pregnant, I suffered from diastasis symphysis pubis or in easy terms, a separated pubic bone. The pain went away after the birth of my daughter, but unfortunately, due to the repetitive nature of running, I am still suffering. My hip has referred pain because of this and it is so bad that there are days that I limp after a long run as I can't lift my leg. (Please note, I have no pain while running, and treatment is strengthening exercises which I do, but I have recognized that I need physical therapy in order to make the situation better.)
So, I am a woman who doesn't want to get old and am excited for the next Twilight movie to be released next week. Is anyone else as excited as I am and will you be at the theater on opening day like myself? Now I just need to find someone to go with, or I will be the crazy woman by herself in the theater watching Breaking Dawn.